Vanessa - The Dream Team
Week #4

Starting weight - 146
Ending weight - 149.2
Difference -3.2+
Goal - 145

Points - 850

I am broken. I know this, otherwise I wouldn't have had 90lbs to lose to begin with.

I started this week with an experiment:
1. Weigh on Thursday morning last week and then don't weigh again until Wednesday this week. I am trying to stop basing the foundation of my day on those digital numbers that stare up at me every morning.
I did fine with this part of the experiment.
2. Eat what sounds good & feels right, within reason and then point at the end of the day.
The point I am at now is maintenance. Will I have to be super strict and point every morsel I ingest for the rest of my life? I hope not. I hope I can get to a place where I am no longer broken. A place where I listen to my body and the subtle signs and signals and feed it was it needs to thrive and be healthy. As with weight loss, maintenance has its own set of ups and downs. Obviously, this week was an 'up', but not in a good way. Factor in birthday dinner at Don Pedro's and Easter/birthday dinner on Sunday and I guess I was bound to be up.
I was surprised to see though, that pointing at the end of the day I was only about 5 points above my daily allowance. Points that easily fit into my flex point allowance. So maybe there is light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe I am not totally broken. I have hope. I took a journey and learned how to lose weight and be healthy. So now I embark on a new journey.
I hope one day to eat like Jackson. That kid knows exactly how much and what kind of fuel his body needs. When his tank is full, he stops. I wonder if he would tell me his secret?